I'm stuck in a loop

In September of this year, I left a job of a year and a half. I was threatened with legal action due to my anonymous Reddit posts detailing what was happening at work.
I've struggled with MDD, CPTSD, and dissociative disorder for many years. This incident in September triggered another bout of severe depression and anxiety. I can't get back to a normal baseline. I do have a therapist and I'm also going to groups at another facility.
I've had three jobs since September none of which are a good fit for me. Each day I wake up exhausted and struggling to know what to do next. I don't have a routine or money for Christmas or gas or utilities or cat supplies. But I do have my rent paid for and I get food stamps.
As I'm heading into the fourth month without steady employment panic is overwhelming me.
I watch many supportive YouTube videos yet my brain won't stop. My entire nervous system is on edge and frazzled
I guess this is just a vent.

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I'm sorry things are so hard for you. Do you find groups helpful?

Some are helpful, others not so much. Sometimes one person dominates and makes it about themselves

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I don't think anything feels as threatening as income insecurity. You have good reason to be anxious and depressed. When I was young, I had a year where I took and lost 6 jobs in one year. None of them felt right to me. When I finally got another job, I vowed I'ld stick with it for 6 months, no matter how much I hated it. At first, I did hate it. But, by the time 6 months was up, I had gotten friendly with a few co-workers and the job seemed tolerable. I ended up staying there for 5 years and learned that a job that seems dislikeable at first can end up feeling okay, if you give it enough of a chance.

You've done well to set up support for yourself. However, you have an immediate, concrete problem that therapy may not be real helpful at resolving. Go to your community's unemployment office and register. They have classes that are worth taking and counselors there to help you in practical terms. They can help you work on producing a nice resume. Also, see if there is an office of Vocational Rehabilitation in your community. Your psych diagnoses would qualify you for help there. They gave me vouchers for gas for my car, while I was job-hunting, and paid for me to take some computer training courses.

Also, you want to have a good paper trail documenting your attempts to get treatment for the psych diagnoses you listed. This can affect your eligibility for some forms of help. Of primary importance is a history of being seen by psychiatrists. Therapy is all to the good, but government programs like to see a formal diagnosis from an actual doctor.

Dealing with mental health challenges and lost employment at the same time is terribly stressful. The main thing needed is to do something every day toward your goal of getting work again. Staying home worrying is guaranteed to make you way more depressed than getting out addressing the situation. It sounds like you have a painful history. Discussing that in therapy may be helpful, but beware of focusing too much on the past. You have to provide for yourself in the present. Nothing in the past can be changed. It's more important to concern yourself with the future. You need to be either going to work, or attending some kind of training that can lead to a job. Unfortunately, training and education are a lot more expensive today, compared to when I was young. There may be subsidies available, but it takes some hunting to find them. Go to Income Support in your community and apply for food stamps (SNAP.) The main thing is to get up from looking at your Internet connection and get out of the house, at least every other day.