Can I just quit everything in a day?

They’re practically bologna and murderous and I’m not going to jail but I don’t want police here so maybe if I call I can stop with meds, just seizures but damn hot can’t slick buckle go whipped they’re killing me so gotta get away can they follow me to Canada?

Sorry you are having police there @MuddyBoots that can be unsettling.

The problem with going out of the country is that you may not be able to get benefits or find a shelter so there are a lot of downsides running to some other country.

Do you have food and shelter where you are now?

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Yes. Because America is the only country in the world with benefits or shelter. And 'Murica does an awesome job and will for sure continue to do an awesome job from here on out....clearly....

I don't remember writing this post, but at this point I'm feeling pretty hopeless.

I don’t think America is the only place one can have benefits and shelter, but unless you have residential rights/work visas in other countries you won’t be able to stay in other countries beyond 90 days or similar length.

And as the other poster said you likely won’t qualify for benefits and shelter in other countries. Canada most certainly provide shelter and benefits but to their own people, not visitors. They do take refugees from war torn areas and other extreme places and you can apply for asylum, but average Americans most likely will not get it approved.

Canada is a lovely place but it’s tricky to stay there

I didnÂ’t know it was impossible to become a resident. I’d find work and might not even need benefits. I just don’t like working here because it’s like 100 F all summer and even winters hardly get below 30 anymore and I’m not into desk jobs.

In quebec, it would be cooler, and there might be employment for your particular skills, like mountain guiding? They need skilled foreigners, or at least they did some years ago. You know some french, right? That was my dream relocation.

Je parle un peu le francais, oui. I really like the Mont Tremblant area (I don't remember where that was, just that they had this one crazy ski trail that I'm pretty sure is only possible to descend with nothing but your skis touching the snow like five hours a winter and I'm trying to figure out what that was called but le site officiel de mont tremblant et le carte is slowwwwwww to load).

But I don't know. I'll see how school goes.

edit: finally loaded. It's called dynamite! There's a glade kinda close called Dynagriffe that would probably make me shyt myself too

I love canada so much. One time i was at niagara falls, checking in at a hotel, and a french speaking couple was also checking in, having problems. I go, "they are asking for a room with a view." Honestly it takes so little to make me happy. That was like 40 years ago. There has to be something wrong with my brain.

I love that

I have a better question for you (myself really, but I'm stumped)

What do I need from my team? Looking at it logically (why am I doing that all of a sudden now I just had alcohol wtf?), they haven't really hurt me. My mental unwellness has, I have, the system has, but my CM and pdoc? Nah. My T triggers my fears of abandonment a lot when she does stuff like call two hours before an appointment and cancel and ask if I want to leave early, but I bet that's not out of malice.

I really do get worried I'm "too much" for my T based on some things she's said ("you're too smart for your own good," "I'm glad I didn't have to argue against you in philosophy class," "you could convince me a horse is a dog" (that one's probably true and I might try it on someone else, but like, not someone with strong Si if we're going by MBTI cognitive function theory because I know that won't work), and as I alluded to earlier her asking me if I want to leave a session early or once she asked me if I wanted a break from therapy kinda seems like she doesn't want to deal with me.). The thing that sucks is that I really AM motivated, just not to find contentment. More in a overly curious want to figure everything out in my own way (rather than most efficient/safest/most definite) manner.

But I've been really struggling lately, feeling hopeless, paranoid, lethargic, whatever. I can ask for help and they'll ask me how they can help me and I. just. don't. know. When they ask I give it a think and then decide treatment is useless because I don't know the answer.

It’s not impossible to become a resident in a foreign country, but is often complicated. As about getting a job….Unless you have work visa or residential rights, most places will not hire you, legally. On the other hand if you seriously considering relocating to Canada, you should start looking into options.

Some states have much cooler summers and winters than whatever you described. Check out Northern Michigan.

Ils no parlent francais au la peninsule superieure. Peut etre j'aime pas parler anglais.

That's good. Complicated and impossible are very different things. Learning to tie your shoes is complicated. Walking on Jupiter is (with current technology as far as I know) impossible. But seriously. If I wanted to visit my peeps it'd be easier to do a three hour drive across a lax international border than drive through 5+ states and spend as much money just in tolls as I would in gas if I just went north.

I'm not really thinking about it though. It's just a fun thought. I'm not allowed to ever go more than 10 hours away from here anyways.

I never mentioned UP. Northern Michigan can be a northern portion of lower peninsula. In fact that’s what i had in mind (easier to find a job than in UP). But yeah most certainly most folks speaks English or/and other languages, it’s very diverse. If the reason you want to move to Canada is because you don’t like to speak English, then sure, you originally said you don’t want to work “here” because it’s too hot/not cold enough, not that you don’t like to speak English.

Listen you can go to Canada or not go to Canada.
Wherever we go, there we are. But of course some places are more manageable than others. So just be careful with drastic decisions, be mindful.

Maybe there's more than one reason I would like to go a few hours north... I can't go to Canada though because if I told my treatment team I don't want treatment from them they'd probably petition for an IEA and the stupid judge, as they do, would probably find a small nugget of unreason to lock me up like saying "she's a threat because two weeks ago she ran a red light." I need specific authorization from my pdoc planned 3 days in advance if I want two days worth of meds at a time if I can't be down there in the morning for whatever reason. If I sleep until 11am once, God forbid, I get anice welcome from the police doing a wellness check and then interrogated on why I'm avoiding my meds.

But no, I can't "quit everything in a day" because last night I slept through my PM (biggest) dose of Depakote and woke up 3 hours after I normally take it and thought I was going to die or something. Scratched my feet til they bled, my brain just like stopped working idk how to describe it. And I'm not doing well and Depakote has a level check so I can't ween myself off it without risking going to the hospital and either lying and them saying I wasn't on a high enough dose due to low levels or being told I've fking had it for months because I skipped the two nights prior's doses. Might just fking snort those 3 extended release fkers tonight.